At the Lotus Feet: Family’s Loss and Ultimate Truth of Nature

On a drizzling Thursday evening of 11th June 2026, a call from Ravi just hurried us to visit home from work. For some reason, we decided to borrow a two-wheeler instead of driving down in our car from the office and rushed through the crawling traffic. While Shobha, who is an amazing lady and a selfless seva warrior who took care of Amma like no one else can even imagine, kept calling out to Amma to keep her eyes open, we thought she was just drifting into deep sleep due to a lack of proper rest over the last two days. It turned out to be a deep sleep alright, but one from which there was no waking up. When Aparna called out, Amma briefly opened her eyes, looked at us, tried to say something, and drifted back to a permanent sleep. Me and Aparna, who were wearing the Maala for our 67th Sabarimala pilgrimage, were anyway supposed to visit her that evening to offer traditional Dakshina and seek her blessings for our upcoming Saturday trip. Amma herself was a devout Ayyappa Bhakt who had completed 31 pilgrimages before age restrictions paused her streak. Perhaps this was Ayyappa’s way of saying He was satisfied with her Tapas. Befitting her lifelong devotion, she began sinking with two Swamis, Ravi, and Shobha around her. When the doctor arrived a few minutes later, he could only detect a faint pulse and told us the time had come. We broke our Deeksha, removed our Maalas in the Puja room, and rushed back to her side before she peacefully soared to the Lotus Feet of Bhagwan Krishna to join our Father and elder brother. She was the inspirational anchor of our family and a pillar of support for everyone in the local Ayyappa temple and AOL community. The challenges that she faced and conquered them successfully that too in early 1960s is unthinkable in a traditional society like ours. That makes her even more special and BRAVE!

After the Antyesthi and post-rituals, following the departure of all relatives and friends, it was time for us as a family to sit together when we truly missed the towering presence of this bundle of infinite energy. A few days thereafter it was some me-time for me to reflect on her lasting influence on my life. Replaying all small incidents and anecdotes, not only with her but also with Dad and Brother, brought a smile albeit with a tinge of pain. It was during these moments that I got pondering on the essence of death. It is something that is such a certain phenomenon, yet it remains so unacceptable for the near and dear ones of the departed. Thought of capturing those thoughts here specifically about what is it that affects us when we lose our Amma.

Losing our mother is the kind of pain that completely breaks something inside us. She is the person who brings us into this world, and when she is suddenly gone, our whole life feels empty and confusing. It is natural to feel shattered because the bond we share with a mother is the deepest one we ever have. But if we look at it deeply, death is not an enemy that comes to ruin life. It is actually the boundary that gives life its real value. Think of life like a canvas. A painting only exists because it has edges. Without that frame, the colors would just bleed out infinitely into nothingness, losing all their shape and meaning. In the same way, our time with our mothers is precious simply because it does not last forever. If we all lived forever, we would take every single moment for granted.

The heavy grief we carry after her loss is actually just love that has nowhere to go. It is the price we pay for being blessed with someone so special. In this universe, we do not truly own anyone; we only get to borrow them for a little while. For several decades, the universe brought a beautiful, devout soul into our lives in the form of our mother. When she leaves, she just returns to the source. Even though her physical body is not here anymore, her love, her words, and her values are completely mixed into our own character. We are carrying her forward in the way we live, the way we speak, and the way we care for others.

Trying to fight the reality of death only increases our suffering. Accepting it does not mean we stop missing her or that we pretend everything is fine. It just means understanding that death is the oldest and most honest rule of nature. Everyone who comes here has to leave one day. Instead of focusing only on the painful end, philosophy teaches us to look at the beautiful journey. The fact that she was here, that she loved us so deeply, and that we got to be her children is a permanent truth. Death can take away her presence, but it can never erase the love we shared.

To dearest Amma, the brave trailblazer, our inspirational anchor, and our constant guide, We wish you a beautiful, blissful journey into the heavens. As you find your eternal rest at the Lotus Feet of Bhagwan Krishna and Swami Ayyappa, we know you are finally reunited with Dad and Brother. As rituals draw to a close and an uncomfortable quiet settles in, home feels different without your towering presence and infinite energy. Yet, there is a profound peace in knowing that you completed your earthly Tapas so beautifully, surrounded by love and devotion until your very last breath.

You may have stepped out of your physical form, but your journey with us isn’t over. Keep shining your light upon us, dear Amma. Look down on your children and grandchildren, and continue to guide and bless us from up above, just as you always did. You will live forever in every prayer we whisper, every value we uphold, and every step we take. Which brings me to the profound Truth that Bhagwan Krishna explains to Arjuna about the immortality and indestructible nature of the soul (Atman).

नैनं छिन्दन्ति शस्त्राणि नैनं दहति पावकः।
न चैनं क्लेदयन्त्यापो न शोषयति मारुतः॥
nainaṃ chindanti śastrāṇi nainaṃ dahati pāvakaḥ
na cainaṃ kledayantyāpo na śoṣayati mārutaḥ

– Bhagavad Gita 2:23

“Weapons cannot cleave the soul, fire cannot burn it, water cannot wet it, and wind cannot dry it.”

Bhagwan Krishna helps Arjuna overcome the fear of death and grief by explaining that no physical world can harm true self. The soul is completely beyond the reach of the four physical elements: Weapons, Fire, Water and Air. Death is only of the body. Soul is eternal, unchangeable, and immortal.

Sovereignty in the Era of Amrit Kaal: A Tribute to India’s Steadfast Leadership

In modern political history June 10 2026 marks an extraordinary milestone for India. On this day Prime Minister Narendra Modi officially completes 4399 consecutive days in office. This surpasses the record of first Prime Minister of India Jawaharlal Nehru who served 4398 consecutive days following the first general election. This achievement formally establishes Narendra Modi as the longest serving continuously elected Prime Minister of India. What makes this historic milestone truly remarkable is not just the sheer length of tenure but the fierce multi layered resistance it overcame. Entering its thirteenth year this era stands as a testament to transformative domestic governance a reshaped global footprint and a resolute defense of the sovereignty of India against sophisticated external and internal attempts at regime change.

Shri Ram Janmabhumi Temple Inauguration – 500 years of waiting from 1528-2024

Domestic Transformation – Welfare, Wealth and Infrastructure

At the core of the governance model of the Prime Minister is a structural overhaul of how public welfare and infrastructure are delivered. This philosophy focuses on development for all citizens. Moving away from historically leaky middleman heavy distribution systems his administration built a completely new template for governance. By leveraging bank accounts biometric identification and mobile connectivity the government implemented direct benefit transfers. This structurally clean system lifted over 200 million citizens out of multidimensional poverty. It also saturated basic needs through mega campaigns like the Jal Jeevan Mission for piped tap water and Ayushman Bharat for universal healthcare. Additionally the indigenous Unified Payments Interface fundamentally transformed the global conversation around financial technology. By normalizing zero cost digital transactions from street vendors to conglomerates India transformed from a cash heavy shadow economy into a formalized data rich global leader. At the same time massive capital expenditure re engineered the physical landscape. The rapid expansion of national highways high speed Vande Bharat trains and a doubling of operational airports under the UDAN scheme seamlessly unified regional economies.

Historic Strides in Poverty Alleviation

This target driven welfare mechanism yielded the most monumental decline in poverty ever recorded in the democratic history of the nation. According to comprehensive data from NITI Aayog verified by international development organizations over 248 million individuals successfully broke out of multidimensional poverty during this tenure. The national headcount poverty ratio experienced a steep fall from over 29 percent down to approximately 11 percent. By shifting the metrics of state support away from simple cash handouts and focusing instead on asset creation the government systematically resolved deep structural deprivations across health education and living standards. The massive expansion of rural housing clean energy distribution and fortified nutrition initiatives ensured that families could sustainably transition into the formalized economy. This monumental reduction has allowed India to track well ahead of its global sustainable development targets proving that scaled state execution can successfully eliminate acute historical deprivation.

Financial and Economic Milestones

Beyond individual digital transactions the administration completely overhauled the financial framework of India. The introduction of the Goods and Services Tax dismantled a confusing web of local consumption taxes to create a unified one nation one tax market. This significantly expanded the tax base of the country. To spur domestic production the government launched the Production Linked Incentive scheme attracting massive global and domestic investments across key sectors like electronics and pharmaceuticals. This helped push the startup ecosystem from under 400 firms in 2014 to over 230000 by 2026 generating millions of jobs and fostering innovation in tier two and tier three cities. Simultaneously opening sensitive areas like space and defense to private participation accelerated high technology growth turning India into an export hub and transitioning it into the fifth largest economy in the world.

Expansion of Higher Institutes of Learning

This comprehensive national upgrade extended directly into the domain of higher education where the administration executed a massive scale transformation of elite institutions. To meet the demands of a rapidly growing technology and healthcare economy the government systematically expanded the footprint of premier national institutes. The number of Indian Institutes of Technology grew from 16 in 2014 to 23 across the country while the network of Indian Institutes of Management expanded from 13 to 21 to nurture world class business leadership. Most notably the All India Institutes of Medical Sciences network tripled from just 7 legacy institutions prior to 2014 to over 22 approved and functional medical campuses bringing specialized tertiary healthcare and advanced research directly to historically underserved states. Coupled with the modernization of 31 National Institutes of Technology and a surge in Indian Institutes of Information Technology this infrastructure democratization ensured that the highest standards of technical managerial and medical learning became accessible to millions of aspiring youths outside conventional metropolitan hubs.

Crisis Management Navigating the Pandemic and Geopolitical Wars

Perhaps the ultimate test of the economic and administrative acumen of this administration came during the twin black swan events of the 2020s. These events were the COVID 19 pandemic and the subsequent global supply chain crises triggered by international conflicts. While major Western economies faltered under runaway inflation and aggressive printing of money PM Modi implemented a highly calibrated fiscal strategy. Domestically the Pradhan Mantri Garib Kalyan Anna Yojana provided a critical food security lifeline to over 800 million citizens to prevent mass destitution. Meanwhile indigenous manufacturing delivered over 2 billion vaccine doses via the digital CoWIN platform. As the pandemic gave way to global economic shocks from the Russia Ukraine war and subsequent Middle East tensions India refused to succumb to external energy dictates. By securing independent crude oil channels and maintaining disciplined fiscal deficits the administration protected domestic retail markets from catastrophic price shocks. As a result international bodies like the World Bank and IMF consistently recognize India as the fastest growing major economy in the world booking a robust GDP expansion of over 7.5 percent even as global markets stagnate.

Legislative Breakthroughs and National Reorganization

The political grammar of India was fundamentally rewritten through bold legislative measures that addressed long standing constitutional anomalies. The parliament executed the historic abrogation of Article 370 stripping the former state of Jammu and Kashmir of its special autonomous status and integrating it completely into the constitutional framework of India. This move unlocked economic opportunities and restored institutional stability to the region. In a massive step forward for social justice the administration criminalized the practice of instant triple talaq securing equal rights and legal protection for married Muslim women. Furthermore the enactment of the Citizenship Amendment Act provided a clear legal pathway to citizenship for persecuted religious minorities from neighboring countries demonstrating a firm commitment to humanitarian values.

Socio Cultural and Religious Renaissance

The tenure has witnessed a deep psychological and cultural shift revitalizing national pride and international appreciation for the civilizational heritage of India. The worldwide adoption of International Yoga Day by the United Nations marked a historic high point for Indian cultural diplomacy. Domestically this renaissance is anchored in the restoration of ancient heritage sites. The landmark construction and consecration of the grand Ram Mandir in Ayodhya stands as a symbol of cultural rejuvenation for millions worldwide alongside massive upgrades to the Kashi Vishwanath and Mahakal corridors. This period also saw a complete democratisation of opportunity across education and research. The number of prestigious Indian Institutes of Technology grew from 16 to 23 while All India Institutes of Medical Sciences expanded from 7 to 23 ensuring that high quality healthcare and technical education reach every corner of the country.

Kashi Vishwanath Dham Corridor Punarnirman

Global Autonomy and the Voice of the Global South

Under the leadership of PM Modi the foreign policy of India pivoted from a traditional stance of non alignment to acting as a Vishwa Mitra which means a friend of the world. This represents a nation confident enough to secure its own strategic autonomy while shaping global consensus. Leaders worldwide have noted that under this leadership India has evolved as a leading voice on global matters. This global profile was permanently cemented during the G20 Presidency of India where New Delhi successfully championed the inclusion of the African Union as a permanent member. By balancing deep strategic alliances with the West while firmly executing independent choices India proved that its foreign policy is dictated solely by national interest. These choices included securing discounted Russian oil and standing resolute during Himalayan border disputes.

Weathering the Storm Standing Firm Against Global Pressures

The longevity of this tenure is inseparable from its resilience against coordinated domestic and geopolitical friction points. To his supporters the ability of the Prime Minister to withstand pressure from external actors global billionaires and deep state narratives is a defining feature of his leadership. Throughout the last decade India has been subjected to intense scrutiny via Western mainstream media international non governmental organizations and global freedom indexes. When influential global figures like billionaire George Soros openly stated desires to see a political change in India New Delhi pushed back aggressively. The external affairs ministry characterized such interventions as the viewpoints of old rich opinionated and dangerous individuals who still believe their preferred narratives should dictate global outcomes. The ability of the administration to dismiss these external pressures has been hailed by supporters as a triumph for true sovereign democracy. The battle has similarly played out in the global financial arena. A short selling report targeting major Indian infrastructure in early 2023 was widely interpreted by the ruling party and its base as a calculated financial strike designed to trigger economic panic stall infrastructure growth and precipitate a domestic political crisis. The subsequent clean slates from regulators and the complete recovery of the market demonstrated that the economic foundations of India were robust enough to survive targeted external shocks.

Ultimate Shield and a Permanent Seat at the Global High Table

Ultimately the most potent countermeasure to foreign interference elite narratives or coordinated opposition coalitions has been the Indian voter. Despite highly polarized political climates and mass protest movements the electorate has repeatedly delivered consecutive mandates at the ballot box. This historic milestone of 4399 continuous days reflects what colleagues describe as the life of a dedicated leader who focuses on duty without pause.

This journey has fundamentally altered how the world interacts with New Delhi. India has transitioned from being a reluctant invitee to occupying a permanent seat at the global high table. This arrival has been achieved entirely on the terms of the nation. By maintaining a strict policy of neutrality in a deeply fractured world and refusing to join competing military blocks India has proved that true strength lies in independent decision making. As India drives toward its target of a developed India by 2047 the enduring tenure of Narendra Modi stands as the institutional anchor for the contemporary rise of the nation. It remains completely unshaken by external forces balanced neutrally amidst global conflicts and entirely validated by the democratic will and absolute sovereignty of 1.4 billion people.

Collective Expression of Patriotic Gratitude

As this historic milestone is realized millions of patriots across the length and breadth of the nation stand united in deep emotional gratitude for a life poured completely into the service of the motherland. For generations citizens yearned to see a leadership that combined civilizational pride with modern scientific ambition and this tenure has actualized that collective dream. The unmatchable dedication of a leader who works without a single day of leave has transformed national self doubt into absolute confidence. This expression of profound thankfulness from the core of the citizenry recognizes that every reform executed every border protected and every heritage site restored was driven by a deep love for the nation. For this relentless dedication to restoring the glory of the country patriots everywhere offer their deepest salutations and heartfelt gratitude to a leader who has redefined the destiny of Bharat Mata.

Digital Chaos to Divine Calm

The next milestone for our Sabarimala Pilgrimage after all the digital chaos out of the way (read the experience clicking the link) and before we set out on our Pilgrimage was the Annual Ayyappa Deeparadhana, Padi Puja, and Bhajan Sandhya. When we were navigating absolute madness of digital trek for this year’s Sabarimala pilgrimage, scrambling for Virtual Q coupons at midnight and fighting for Sannidhanam room bookings, we knew universe was testing our ability to surrender. We had braced ourselves to embrace storm.

Started off like this
Shri Arun-The Architect of the Spiritual Decor for the Evening
We Allow Pretending to Work too

But nothing prepared us for how beautifully that chaotic digital scramble would dissolve into pure divine ecstasy during our 4th Annual Ayyappa Deeparadhana, Padi Puja, and Bhajan Sandhya. By absolute grace of Lord Hariharaputra, our annual ritual found its perfect anchor on June 7th, 2026, at Santhosh Shanbhag Swami’s home.

And it kept adding layer by layer
Till it got here with just one more step to go
We are All Set-Except for Cleaning Up

Overcoming Elements

Leading up to weekend, clouds hung low over Bengaluru and weather forecasts aggressively predicted heavy downpours. Collective anxiety began to creep into our messaging groups and me along with Santhosh Swami and others preparing for the same at the Venue.

And we got going with Lighting of Deepa – Rajani ji and Meenakshi ji

But devotion has its own meteorology. Our collective Sankalpa and prayers won. Bhagwan Varuna decided to shower his blessings by staying away, completely clearing path. What followed was evening that shattered every single expectation we had built over last three rocking years. From very first note struck, energy at the venue scaled heights we had never imagined.

Echo of Forty Years

For me personally, sharing floor and singing Ayyappa Bhajans alongside Madhu Swami (my Brother) for fourth consecutive year was deeply emotional. As our voices synchronized in praise of Bhagawan, my mind flooded with memories of our growing up years at humble Lakkasandra Ayyappa Bhajana Mandali. Watching that small mandali transform over forty long years into majestic Laljinagar Ayyappa Temple is a privilege. Seeing that exact same spark of raw, uncompromised devotion burning so brightly today in our own living rooms is nothing short of divine blessing.

With Madhu Swami

As always, DaMaKis team of which I am a miniscule part, just like everyone else, worked their absolute magic. They elevated entire evening, bringing flawless level of execution, coordination, and spiritual vibrance that gripped every participant.

Decoding Rituals

Behind grand visual spectacle of Deeparadhana and Padi Puja lies profound psychological and spiritual reality that hit us all hard.

  • Deeparadhana: As sacred flames were waved and our collective voices echoed Swamiye Saranam Ayyappa, burning camphor became mirror. It symbolized total dissolution of our heavy, everyday egos, leaving behind nothing but pure, radiant devotion.
Deepam in its resplendent brightness
  • Padi Puja: Worshiping 18 holy steps was powerful, visceral reminder of our internal climb. By lighting lamps on each step, we symbolically prayed to conquer our five senses, internal vices like anger, pride, and ego, three gunas, and darkness of ignorance. It is step by step march toward ultimate truth, Tat Tvam Asi.

Flow of Sampradaya Bhajans

Entire musical flow of the evening perfectly followed our traditional Ayyappa Bhajan Sampradaya sequence. We started with traditional invocations to Ganesha, Maa Saraswati/Sharada, Guru, Shiva, and Muruga, Rama and Krishna to set pure spiritual foundation. Momentum gradually built as we transitioned into high energy songs dedicated to Bhagwan Ayyappa, capturing raw spirit of the hills.

Pinnacle of Ayyappa Bhajans

Pinnacle of devotion was reached during powerful Padi Puja and Deeparadhana songs where every single voice in the room joined in absolute unison. Finally, the evening concluded beautifully with soothing and meditative Harivarasanam, bringing peaceful and divine silence to the space.Power of Sangha

Bhajan Sandhya is never about lead singers, it is entirely about congregation. I am immensely grateful to each of our 47 pilgrims, their beautiful families, and all Bhaktas who joined us. Your loud chanting, clapping, and infectious, high-octane energy made this night unforgettable. You brought method to our madness.

May Swami Ayyappa bless Santhosh Swami’s home, Madhu Swami, DaMaKis team, and every single one of our families with robust health, happiness, and unwavering faith. The next highlight was delicious and sumptuous Prasada which served as a dinner to sign off the evening.

We successfully anchored rituals. Now, with our Irumudi preparations swinging into full gear and our hearts fully charged, we look forward to scaling physical and spiritual heights of Sabarimala together.

Relive Divine Energy

Complete playlist of Bhajans, recorded live during Deeparadhana, Padi Puja, and Bhajan Sandhya at Santhosh Shanbhag Swami’s home on June 7th, 2026, is now live on YouTube.

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